“God, Help me!”
He was addicted to pornography. He could tell when he was about to fall back into sin and would cry out to God to help him. He still sinned. Why didn’t God answer his cry for help?
He wanted God to heal him instantly of an addiction that had been built and supported for over a decade. So far, God hadn’t answered in that way.
God told him that he was trying to speed up the process. God told him that his motivation was wrong. God wanted his motivation not to be “Don’t sin,” but rather a desire to know Him.
As we talked a picture was formed in my mind. He had 20 hooks in his back that were tied to the Kingdom of Darkness. He was getting jerked around, ruthlessly dragged down into the mud and defiled. Each hook was a sexual bond that was formed through immorality. He said he had more like 2,000 hooks.
Instead of taking the time to allow God to surgically remove each hook, he would stand back up, run forward “toward God” as fast as he could until the enemy yanked him down into the mud again. His standard of success was how far he could get before falling again.
The idea of praying through each and every sexual encounter that he had in his past was daunting. It would take “forever!” I told him he had a choice. Keep up this horrible cycle of defilement or remove one or two hooks tonight. He hunkered down and put in the work required, praying through two specific instances that the Holy Spirit brought to mind.
Had God answered his prayer? A powerful image of Christ carrying his sin and his punishment for him came to his mind. The primary way that God had helped him in that situation was by paying for the sin he was committing. God did want to heal him, but healing wasn’t happening in the moment when he was tempted, it was happening slowing and surely as he prayed through his past. Was this man a sinner? No, he was a son of God who was sinning and actively desiring to be free. It wasn’t his sin anymore. Jesus was carrying it for him. It had no power to effect his identity.
He has a lot of work ahead of him, applying the blood of Jesus to many other situations, but he needs to just focus on dealing with them one at a time. He will find freedom from these hooks, but it won’t be “quick.” It’s not a hard process to apply the blood of Jesus to these sorts of things, but it does take intentionality, clarity and specific prayer. Some people say that this takes too much time and will never start. Some people will give themselves the time they deserve to be free.