Holding nothing back
Two years ago I came back from my last deployment, intentionally not returning to my amazing job at a non-profit where I invested in youth who were having a hard time graduating.
God had told me to pursue ministry full-time.
As in, an occupation.
As in, don’t make your own money, but trust Him for money.
As in, put everything on the line and trust the Unseen to supply the very seen, and felt, needs.
As in, trust someone else to be better at taking care of you, your wife and your baby than you are.
Someone else whom you read about, see dimly, but struggle to remember what His presence feels like and what his faithfulness looks like when you’re not experiencing it at the moment.
Trust that Guy.
You might not be able to pay your bills.
You might lose your home.
You probably won’t be able to buy that gadget.
You might not be able to buy your wife a Christmas gift even though you would love to love her that way.
You might have to cash out your retirement funds.
Your bank account might dry up.
And… then what?
You have spent your time and energy following God and investing in others. Who will invest in you?
I can’t imagine that God is a worse Father than I am…” -Hudson Taylor (paraphrased)
For two years I haven’t told anyone my needs. I have provided a way for them to give if God told them to. George Muller did it for 60 something years. Hudson Taylor financed a revolutionary missionary society that way. Rees Howells, the great intercessor, learned to trust God in this way over the course of his life.
I did it for two years.
Now, I think God is telling me to ask for people to support me. So, here I am.
Honestly, I wanted to keep going without telling anyone anything and just trusting in prayer alone. But, it would be pride, not obedience at this point to keep that up.
Please ask God if you should support us in prayer or financially.